Timey Wimey

 June 13th: Last day before her birthday, we had a nice morning, I made her breakfast. She finished filling out her 'hang man' but I wouldn't let her go to the website yet. We watched the end of Black Panther before she went off to see her friends in Leesburg. I took this time to turn her hang man page into a birthday card. Wellllll I didn't finish it before she got back, because i wasn't expecting her that early. She came in the door as i was finishing cooking dinner for me and my dad and her. We ate and watched AGT and ANW then I finished her birthday card. Pictures Below.  This is gonna be a short one, because well its the last one before she knows about it and I had things to do that weren't on the computer.

Happy Birthday Beautiful XD

Today's reason is Timey Wimey. I choose this because I left her watching Doctor Who Planet of the Dead while I drew a zombified Matt Smith Doctor equipped with Fez and Bowtie. She got me a Doctor shirt a while back, and she has one of her own. Plus its her birthday.

Vigilance

June 12: SHES HERE!!!!!!!!!! Sooooooo today is gonna be a barrage of updates when she isn't paying attention. I went to town and got a bag for her presents and a new chain for my steampunk necklace she got me a while back, the clasp had broke. And I updated the look of the blog, made the background a picture she took and edited a long time ago, wonder if she will notice that before reading it here. I also added a few things like the LOVE banner and the picture of my sol on the side bar.

Dinner time, I am making dinner for me her and my dad, cooking bacon and gonna make grilled cheese with ham/bacon and for her I am going to make a patty melt.

Dinners over, it was delicious and she agreed. I can't wait to see the look on her face when she gets to read this. We are watching TV with my dad, after he goes to bed we will tackle the kitchen and then watch The Emperor's New Groove.

Dad just went to bed and took shadow like every night. Morgan forgot to bring her 'hang man' which is what I call her clue to find this website. I told her the number of characters and let her guess a letter a day, which was actually a one per entry but she doesn't know that, I also gave her extra guesses for sweet things over the course of time since this blog was started. I was planning to use her hangman to make her birthday card. So I making her make a new one using my colored pencils.

We are going to bed now, we watched The Emperor's New Groove and a bit of Black Panther after cleaning the kitchen.

Today's reason is vigilance. It had led her to discover that I was planning on going to Columbus, and that I was on blog spot from a screenshot of my screen with only the tab at the top. Her attention to detail is phenomenal, and I feared it once, back when I wasn't 100% truthful with her. Now I just play with it, to tease her with surprises. It leads her to color code her outfit and look super cute. It causes super cute mannerisms like straightening out the 'ball of bacon' after it cooked and curled.

Dedication

June 11: She got the letter I sent her today, texted me as soon as she got it. I played coy at first until I knew that she had the letter, in order not to give away the surprise if she hadn't. I called her, and she told me the it made her happy, brought her to tears. I guess I did good. I finished my secret project I told ya'll about yesterday. Didn't take pictures, because I couldn't post them today anyway. There is things to come, but what fun would it be if I revealed them now ;). I got her to admit today that she does appreciate all the anticipation, after getting her letter.

Today's reason is Dedication. Since the beginning's of our relationship Morgan has always done the traveling and that has never really changed. Whether it be her going to the Movie theater to meet me, or her coming to my house, or her driving to Atlanta while I was in school, Morgan has done the legwork of this relationship. Her immense dedication to making us work as a unit. If it wasn't for her coming to see me as often as she did we may have fallen apart long ago, we will never know. I would like to think we would have found a way to make it work one way or another but we didn't have to because she is so amazing. I regret that I took that for granted for so long, and that I have yet to do my part to fix the issue of her having to do all the driving. I plan to do my part in the near future, but that will be but a drop in a bucket compared to her oceans worth of effort.  Tomorrow she will be driving down here yet again, I can't wait to see her, I can't wait to put a smile on her face and then kiss it :D

Persistence

June 10th: Today was rather uneventful, I watched ALOT of Mad men, but I built a light box so I can start on my art project for her, and I will begin on my surprise for her that she wont learn about till after her birthday; so I cant share it with any of my current readers, if I have any, because she will know about this blog by her birthday.

Today's reason is Persistence. We fell asleep last night on Skype together, so my alarm clock woke her this morning. My dad woke me a bit after the alarm clock, and when she heard me talking she turned her cam on (we had a connection issue in the middle of the night which killed both cams) and started talking to me. From then on she must have tried to wake me or keep me awake at-least 20 times before I finally got up for good at around 2 pm. I love how she doesn't give up when she wants something, or when its something that's good for me, I wish she was so persistent about things good for her, but hell I guess that's my job.

Inspiration

June 9th: Yesterday I left two sweet messages on Facebook, one on my wall, and one on hers. This inspired her to leave a sweet message, a quote from Kevin Smith on her wall. Just wait til you see it, It felt like something I would have said if only I were more eloquent.

Mine :A little birdy told me that pretty girls like to hear nice things, that they like cute things left for them in a public venue. Well my girl is the prettiest so I best start coming up with the cutest, sweetest, nicest things just to do her justice. I know i have it in me, just gotta put it to work.

Her respone : ♥ I am quite enjoying the beginnings of this work.

Mine on her wall:  Good Morning Babydoll, Every morning I wake to see the sun, it illuminates my day and warms the air. If I could I would prefer to wake every morning to see you, you illuminate my mind and warm my heart. You make the sun seem unimportant.

Her respone: So I have read this the 7 times I was instructed by you..and yes, it does make me happy.^_^ It would make me happier to be able to make that preference come true and wake up next to you every morning. All the loves. ♥

Hers: "That person that took your breath away....Like oh my god everything she says is amazing. She enlightens you, she teaches you things, she's fucking beautiful, she's sexy, she fucks like a demon. She's everything you dreamed about and she's interested in you for some reason. She's turned the fucking sun onto you for some unknown reason and you never want to let that go. Once you stand in the light of the sun you never want the moon again. And you work hard to stay around that, you love being around her."

My response: " ... made me smile and squee. i love you baby XD kevin smith took the words right out of my brain ... yup must have been :D"


If I didn't know better I would think she had found out about this site. The whole sun part of it was perfect, but every part of that quote fits her like a glove.

Today's reason is Inspiration. Not only has she inspired me to write this blog, she has inspired me to climb out of this rut I am in with my life. She has held me together through this dark time of mine. But most recently shes been my inspiration to return to my art. I forgot how much I loved art. I had a blast drawing and blending colors in her letter last night. I plan to try to return to doing color art again and have something special in mind for her.

The Letter

June 8th: Today the darn clever girl spoiled one of my surprises. I was originally planning on surprising her by showing up at her has as the clock struck midnight on her birthday. Well she had planned to come down a few days before and had not told me exactly when, so I called her mother and we concocted a story to keep her in town a few more days so I could surprise her and then she wouldn't need to come to Albany cause I was there. Well she was all kinds of suspicious when her mother told her that her sister had a surprise for her on Tuesday that couldn't wait. And then she somehow jedi mind tricked me into slipping and saying when I get there. I tried to play it off as a Freudian slip but she wasnt buying it. I tried to deny it but she was going to make me promise on the relation ship, she plays dirty, so I came clean and told her what I was planning( only the making a trip there part, she still doesn't know about this). Well after some conversing we concluded that she wanted to come down here and if I still wanted to come up I could for a few days then she could come down here for a few, that way she can see a few other people she wants to see for her birthday. So I decided that I wouldn't go up there in order to save gas money, no reason for us both to make short trips and  I would head up there at some later date. She was happy that I was planning on coming up and that I was making an effort, so all was not lost on that surprise. Oh and her presents I bought her came in today :D

Today's reason is well hard to find a single word for, I'm not kidding I stared at the thesaurus for a half hour trying to find one. A while back when rummaging through some old stuff I came across some 'notes' from high school, you know the kind you write and fold up and pass back and forth. Most of them were from old girlfriends, and when Morgan saw them she wasn't all to happy I had kept them but more than that she seems sad she didn't have something like that from me. Therefore I wrote her a letter today, then I wrote it by hand, in cursive. I then drew some art on it, sadly I forgot to snap pictures of them so I'll have to take some for you after she gets it. And I put it in the mailbox for Saturday morning.  I am pasting the typed version of the letter below.

Dear Morgan,

I don’t normally write letters, but I’m making an exception for you. You are the light of my life; I would be nothing without you. I’ve grown accustomed to having you around, and that caused me to become complacent in this relationship. Because you treat me so well, I went a long time without realizing that I was not treating you the way you deserve.  To think back and remember times where you were here and I sat at my computer at the table to stubborn to pick it up and move over to the couch thinking that if you wanted me near you would come to me, it just baffles me how I could have been that blind. You shouldn’t have to come to me, you already come to my house every time, that was very thoughtless and disrespectful of me to expect you to come to me at the table as well. You deserve much more than I have been giving you, you deserve to be worshiped. And with this epiphany I plan significant changes to the way I treat you and through that the way you feel about the future of this relationship.

                I am lucky that you’ve stuck it out this long, any sane person wouldn’t have, but love makes people crazy. We have walked through the darkness long enough that we can now see the light at the end of the tunnel, and for me that light is you, and it has been dark so long I didn’t even realize the light I was missing, both in this relationship and in life in general. You have been there with me through what will probably be one of the most emotionally challenging points in my life and you have been strong and supportive, despite the way that I treated you throughout and how it has put you in a dark place. You have been my light and my support to get out of my tunnel and I plan to turn and do the same for you. I want to make every day for you a happy one for you. I want you to feel as if you can come to me with anything and that I will help you though it one way or another.

I love you, and as I transform and repair myself I hope to become a person that deserves you, a person that can make you happier than you can even imagine right now.

                Sincerely With Love,

                Marcus “Three Hawks” Ray Taylor II

This may not be it exactly, I typed it then hand-wrote it and I changed somethings in the process, I tried to remember to change them as I went but I may have missed a few small things.

Sui iuris

June 7th: Today was a Day of manual labor ... and video games. Had to all the sweaty labor of digging up the cover of a septic tank, and installing a pool pump. OOOO and I got to pet Tux (the white and black kitten living outside today) today, TWICE. Phoenix is not a big fan of his, she hissed at him when I brought him inside, and before that earlier in the day she smelt him and Johnboy ( the first cat we called our own here, a stray we decided to feed) on my hands and hissed at me. The Gaul of that woman, hissing at me. Doesn't she know I feed her and clean her litter box :P  Snapped some super cute pictures of the kittens today too.

All the cuteness aside, this blog is not about cats. Today's reason why I love her is "Sui iuris" its Latin for 'DAT ASS!'. Just kidding it means 'of ones own laws', I found it while skimming the thesaurus for a word that was on the tip of my tongue that I thought would be a good word for today's reason, that word is nonconforming, but I think I like the Latin better.  But yes, she walks to the beat of her own drum. Whether it be her tattoos, piercings, dying her hair, gaming, or even dating me. She does what makes her happy, no matter what people think about it or say about it. And I love this about her. I will post pictures of her tattoos and piercings below :)

Kawaii

June 6th: Today wasn't the greatest of days :/ We got in a fight TT. There's something shes been asking me not to do for a while. And today I was on Skype vid chat with her for  several hours while I cleaned. Well later into the day she got tired and she took a cat nap on screen, well I turned off my cam and I did what she was asking me not to do. Then my dad came home and I forgot to turn my cam back on. When she woke up and the cam was off she hung up the Skype call and attempted to call back. I was on the other side of the house and didnt hear it. She then called on my cell phone, the instant I heard it I ran across the house to answer it. She drilled me on why my cam was off and I did the dumbest thing I could ever do. I lied about what i was doing, why the cam was off, and she caught me in it so i fessed up. She always knows, I know better than to lie to her, it just happened. The next many hours were spent in arguments, either on the phone, or texting, or Skype chat, or Sskype Vid. I was afraid I was going to loose her, she was very angry and upset about it, about the lying more than the thing she told me she didn't want me doing. But yea, not the best of days, but not the worst. There have been worse, but not much worse.

Despite all the fighting I am going to continue with the purpose of this blog, the reason why I love her. Today's reason is Kawaii. Kawaii is a Japanese word for cuteness, essentially, when used in its noun form "Kawaisa" it also means lovability. Well if there's a scale of lovability she is at the top of it, 11 out of 10 I would say. Here's a pictures of her a snapped while she was asleep. Soooooo cute.

Is she the cutest ever XD

She is so cute when she sleeps, so peaceful when shes getting good sleep and she very rarely manages good sleep for long. So its like coming upon a patch of fresh snow, and knowing if you disturb it you are destroying something beautiful.

This is a cute grenade, about to explode

Wearing my shirt :)

Can you believe, she doesn't really like her smiley pics? How could you not, they adorable.

Fierce

June 5th: Today I begged her not to leave cam (Skype), said I would be all alone and scared and lonely and defenseless and that I needed her to stay so I could feel safe. Said what if the kittens were plotting and turned on me as soon as she left. She said they wouldn't if anything they would be plotting to take out each other to ensure themselves more food. I then quickly retorted what if a bear broke down my door to kill me. After a few retorts back and forth we agreed every phone should have a press here in case of bear attacks button to summon ones significant other to save the day with a shotgun, ending with laying on a bear pelt rug. Anyway, was super cute, and I was all smiley and she must have been cause she texted me while she was out about how happy my sweetness and cuteness is making her.

Today's reason is Fierce. Whether you take it to mean the way she caries her self, her attitude, or her fashion, it's awesome in every way. When she wants to she has a swagger that makes runway models seem like children, she can choose to ooze cute, or ooze sexy at will. She even has this way about her that is the perfect combination of cute and sexy when she isn't trying. When you get on her wrong side though, she knows how to handle business and she can have a look in those beautiful eyes that can turn your knees to rubber, make you forget you had a backbone. But my true reason for choosing Fierce is her fashion. Shes got a style all her own and her birthday is coming up. I had intended to post pictures of the things I bought for her today on here, but when things go out of stock on that site they remove the pictures. One of the items she showed me almost a month ago and told me she loved was out of stock but they had one like it that I think she will like almost as much. I got her that(seen below) and another item she asked for, a steam-punk top with corset ties on the back.  She asked for a pair of boots from her parents, so I figured she would like getting these from me.

Edit: Stumbled across this picture while looking for Kawaii material, quite fierce.

Tenacity

June 4th: Yesterday I gave her a Hang Man or Wheel of Fortune style hint to find this site. I'm letting her guess one character a day, plus a bonus character every time she gives me another reason to love her, or makes me squee with her sweetness or reminds me of a reason I forgot. The trick is I haven't told her how to earn bonus characters.

We agree she looks like an inanimate object in this picture. Either way she is gorgeous.

Today's reason is her Tenacity. For a long time I have not treated her the way she deserves. I've said and done hurtful things. I haven't showed her how much I loved her. I didn't fully appreciate what I had with her. With time I've had epiphanies about how much she means to me, and the way I should treat her. Since I began recovering from my depression I have been putting in much effort to do sweet things for her, and to treat her right. To listen for things she wants of and for me, and I am working to be the best possible for her. I truly don't deserve her, or how amazing she is to me. I want to reach to point where I do, where I do as much for her as she does for me. That will be a great day.

ZOMG freckles. The sun in the summer brings them out :D

Smile

June 3rd: I'm going to make this one quick. Today was rather uneventful but today she told me that seeing me smile makes her smile. Actually it's easier just to do it like this


[10:41:31 PM] Morgan Macabre: good <3 should always be smiling
[10:41:38 PM] Morgan Macabre: tis such a cute one
[10:42:08 PM] Marcus Ray Taylor II: my smile?
[10:42:15 PM] Morgan Macabre: yessss
[10:43:28 PM] Marcus Ray Taylor II: if you say so
[10:43:37 PM] Morgan Macabre: i do. i believe i have stated so as well
[10:45:28 PM] Marcus Ray Taylor II: you may have
[10:45:51 PM] Morgan Macabre: you smiling always makes me smile
[10:46:38 PM] Marcus Ray Taylor II: that sounds familiar
[10:46:40 PM] Marcus Ray Taylor II: ...
[10:46:52 PM] Morgan Macabre: hm?
[10:47:08 PM] Marcus Ray Taylor II: sounds like something ive heard before
[10:47:12 PM] Morgan Macabre: from?
[10:47:18 PM] Marcus Ray Taylor II: me
[10:47:20 PM] Marcus Ray Taylor II: about you
[10:47:37 PM] Morgan Macabre: i dont know.
[10:49:54 PM] Marcus Ray Taylor II: yup
[10:50:01 PM] Marcus Ray Taylor II: definitely something ive said about you before :)
[10:50:41 PM] Morgan Macabre: if you say so XD if this is true, then there shall be an epic ongoing domino effect of smiley goodness

But yea. Today's reason I love her is her smile. It is quite possibly the most heartwarming thing on the planet. When I see it I cant help but to smile, and be happy.

I only posted this because you enjoy my smiley pictures..for some reason.

I mean look at her, Look at that gorgeous face, and that joyful smile, and tell me that it doesn't make you feel warm and fuzzy. I love this girl with all my heart and I would be hard pressed to find anything on this earth that makes me happier than making her smile.

So here are somethings I know make her smile for when she finds this.

Morgan calls this witch her spirit animal. See what I did there? Witch, Get it?

Phoenix

June 2nd: Today's blog comes a little late in the the day. But it is still the second. I was on Skype with her while typing this, she is getting really sketched out by all my plotting and planning and every time she catches me working on my romantic gestures I just say TRUST ME. I cant wait till she gets to see all of this and it all clicks in her head.

Today's reason I love her is Phoenix and Shadow. My constant reminders of her in my life. She fell in love with Phoenix when she first saw her, only weeks after she first opened her eyes.

One of the first Pictures of her

The Pretty Lady in the Saxophone.

Wearing her mommies Zombie bracelet, next to her brother Tux

I like to think shes staring me down and claiming me as her own.

  

My Gorgeous ladies I'm not sure if either of them know how much I love them. Or how happy they make me. Both get irritated with me at times, but other times they want nothing more than to cuddle with me.

Those are all old pictures of her, from a few months ago. Shes older now, I snapped a picture of her and Shadow while they were napping today. 

That's her now, Oh how shes grown, that's her brother napping next to her with his paws in the air. They cuddle in all the cutest ways, I will try to snag more pictures of them being cute if I can remember to grab my camera instead of just staring in awe at their cuteness. 

But back to the point. Today's reason is Phoenix. Morgan lives in Columbus GA, and I live in Albany. Its not huge distance but its more than enough to stop us from seeing each other everyday. When Morgan is not in town or I am not at her house, I have Phoenix to cuddle with at night so I don't have to sleep alone. Morgan choose Phoenix as her favorite of the four kittens and she turned out to have the best personality when we decided to bring ONE in. Morgan was then the voice of reason to bring a second kitten in so Phoenix would have a friend to play with, thus Shadow came into the house. They brothers Tux and Pryde live outside with their mother. I see them from time to time. But yes, Phoenix is today's reason why I love Morgan, the light of my life, my sol, who which my life revolves around.  Phoenix is my Morgan surrogate so I don't go insane from missing her. Shes not quite as cute, and her kisses don't even come close. But shes mine, and shes a constant reminder of the love of my life.

That will be it for tonight, and although it is technically June 3rd now, it was June second when I began typing.